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 I went to Paisley again for the YWAM New Staff Orientation on Tuesday. It was a welcome change, getting out of the city for a day to do something different.

During a time of prayer several things were revealed to me. One, was that God is a gardener, and He is preparing the soil, and planting, setting down roots for me in Scotland. Other things included living in the moment

because tomorrow will take care of itself.

Having fun with God… finding the funny, pointing to the true.

But also, God said to me through several people…

“Arise, my love, my beautiful one and come away with me.”

He acknowledged my femininity and desire to be captivating and beautiful and responded with lovely words that blessed my heart. I want to run through the fields with Him and be fully confident in the moment with Him, rejoicing always even when I don’t know how things will turn out.

Yes, let’s live that sort of life!

This womb is empty
longing to stretch, to birth.
“Lonely womb, I did not know.
You cried in the desert and in this land full of
green, rolling hills and destiny that I didn’t know
could be held in small hands searching for release.”
I am barren, but full of life.
“Hush, now, little one.
The time has not yet come
but I feel you in the dark, whispering
of possibility.”
And I know.
“The tears you cried have sown,
have been drunk by parched earth
waiting to fulfill its destiny.”
Like me.
We will be,
we will accomplish all that we were made for.
Yes. But not yet.
Not quite.
Soon.

Right now I feel that I am in the middle of a crisis, but finding words to explain this, is not easy. There’s nothing outwardly wrong. And yet I feel… lost. I ache.

Is it a spiritual thing? Some sort of attack? Or something else?

I think yes. I think there is a lot going on. A lot of different factors.

I am exactly where I belong, my destiny is close. I am living for God and delving into my dreams and calling and yet… I feel empty and I feel, a crisis.

I could really use your prayers.

There’s been a lot of things happening and I haven’t been able to keep you up to date. Sorry about that. I have a proper post coming, but in the meantime…

I have been filming (and directing & editing) short films for the Western European Leadership Conference in the Netherlands. I have also been settling into my flat, getting to know my wonderful flat-mates, and rehearsing the one-woman show, which debuts this May 16 & 17 at the Edinburgh Rush Festival.

As of today, I’m really feeling encouraged about life and my brain is teeming with ideas for short films and plays. It’s exciting! I was just so encouraged this morning and feeling such joy at realizing and really relishing in the fact that I live in the UK and I adore it here. I really do.

God is providing in ways that I just hadn’t expected.