okay, so…

Do you ever get the urge to just stand somewhere high and out in the open, throw back your hands/arms/head and yell:

“It’s not about you!!!!”

I do. Often.

I want to yell that to myself when I get selfish and self centred; I want to yell that to people who make assumptions or twist my words to their own meaning; I want to yell it to the people who think company policies are set out just to annoy them; I want to yell it to people who sit in churches taking notes on how to better themselves only, and ignore their neighbour…

It’s not about you. It’s not about me. It’s about truth. And the truth is I need more peace, joy, freedom, and compassion. I need more release, more ability to be graceful and giving and honest with myself so that I do not enter into places where I allow myself to be untrue and then have to deal with the aftermath later. I’d like to love boldly and truthfully and with all of the authenticity and confidence found in knowing who He made me to be. Cos you can’t give yourself away if you don’t know who you are. If you do you’ll lose more than you gain because you are giving from empty reserves and not full ones. I’ve learned this the hard way.

Curiosity killed the cat but set the bird free. When I figure out which I am today, I’ll let you know.

~ by tardistraveler on June 30, 2009.